workin on it...

this is going to be breif.

so this summer i have given myself specifics to work on.

it almost feels like somedays there is an exact word that sticks out, that i need to work on.

right now, i think it is be present.

i feel like for as long as i can remember i focus a lot of energy on the future.

things coming up.

and although a part of my problem is that i love to plan/look forward to things...

i am wasting the time in between.

i am not focusing enough of my energy on the now, the present.

the today.

and i do spend too much time on the...

yesterdays.

not in the actual sense, but in the fact that -- i struggle with letting go.

so, i'm workin on it.